In my desperation I have turned to my family to be my guinea pigs. I worked on Ibby for the first time in December and then she let me do it again the other night and there was something so sweet about it! As I worked the sen lines on her legs and pressed the marma points on her arms I was reminded of when she was a baby and I'd rub her little body while she nursed. I enjoyed her infancy so much! We had just moved to this house and I finally felt settled after moving around for many many years. We finally had enough room to stretch out and run around so we didn't feel so much like we were right on top of each other. I also was taking my happy vitamins -- really it is fish oil -- but I was so so worried about experiencing postpartum depression again. I had had it quite badly with both Charles and Lucinda, so I was dreading that baby time. I had read somewhere that fish oil would help so I began to take it quite faithfully and lo and behold! The dreaded depression and panic attacks never arrived! It made such a difference! And she was such a chill baby! But I always wonder if it is a chicken and egg situation. Was she chill because I was more calm? Or was I more calm because she was chill? She still is pretty mellow! It is her personality for sure. And the other two, are, shall we say, not, haha!
Anyway, it was really nice for me to be able to go back to that time, as it were. Through the sense of touch I was able to recall that time so vividly and it was beautiful. She is such a sweetie and I am trying to cherish these last couple of years with her home (sob, sob, sob).
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